Word Void

It's strange , but this is one of those times that i'm lost for words. I'm often lost for words, sometimes without reason, and this is one of those times. So here's some structureless mumbo jumbo - me wanting to find out what comes out when there exists that peculiar void of words within my being. It is quite paradoxical for me to be able to describe a period of wordless existence using the crutch of language- with words as a medium, considering that they have supposedly abandoned me presently. It's like that guy who wanted to document how getting wasted felt, but then he couldn't think straight enough to write while he was wasted , and couldn't remember enough the next morning. It's pretty similar, this situation , of using words to describe wordlessness.



There are many ways of thinking things out, words being one of them. The most vivid and powerful of these "thinking in your head" tools is visualization. So we have language, visualization, and.. hmm..i'll let u know when i come across anymore. Language is curious in it's subtlety as a thinking tool - it's often indispensable, without letting one realize the fact. To get a grasp on how remarkably powerful language can be, compare a language-less civilization with ours. How language can organize thought is incredible ; because the organization is so robust (excuse the control systems hangover) it allows one to build layer upon layer of logical and mathematical constructs, allowing us beetle brains to explore situations and relations of an almost infinitely complex nature. I often wonder whether the inability to comprehend and utilize language is one of the reasons that animals are so inept compared to humans in cerebric processes - because after all, a single layer of thinking is basically observe and respond, or follow your instinct, which is sub optimum utilization of whatever little mental faculty non homo sapiens have.

So much for wordless void. I still sense the void within me, the only difference being that it's been initialized with junk now. Need to clear my registers before I can make some sense of them . That means a good night's sleep. Or maybe some adrenaline. Where do they let you sleep while u're falling from the sky? Oh yes, that was in my dreams. Maybe i'll get the same dream again. Then i'll have adrenaline and sleep, inside of sleep. Interesting. Can i have adrenaline and sleep inside of adrenaline? Oh man, i've stopped making sense. Maybe i should get some sleep. Or maybe some adrenaline....